I'm not going to lie, living out the Christian life at times is not fun. It was never meant to be (all) fun and games. Jesus specifically said that those who follow him will indeed face persecution. But that's not what I'm here to talk about today. I just wanted to throw some words out there that have been trapped in my head for a bit of time now. As a 17 year old teenager going through the typical high school experience, there are constant temptations all over the place. Guys talking about porn and girls, parties with alcohol, girlfriends etc etc. To be honest I'm not particularly tempted by porn and the activity that usually follows it but I'll hone in on the other two I listed.
1. Parties and alcohol
I'm not going to lie, I do miss drinking and partying at times. And what makes it harder is that these things aren't even necessarily wrong in themselves. It's just the connotations and the results that usually come with partying at drinking which makes it outright stupid. That being said, I wish I could still go to the occasional party and have a drink or two, laugh it up with my school friends. I had a few drinks at a wedding reception that my parents brought me to but there's no fun in that when you're just drinking with strangers and your parents are around. I see all the pictures and stuff on facebook, and despite thinking that some of these people made complete fools of themselves. I'd still want to go to these social events and have a good time. Don't get me wrong, I would never give up what I have now with Cabang and the amazing opportunities they've offered me but I do miss the past, occasionally.
2. Girlfriends
My last relationship ended sourly and rightfully so too. If my last girlfriend ever stumbles upon this I'd just want her to know how sorry I am for how I behaved in the dying months of our relationship. In saying that though, I'm still glad it's over and that I can now look back at all the mistakes I made. However, I believe God did let me go through that relationship for a reason. It might have been for the next challenge I'm going to face. Being single for the next four years. It sounds hard. It will most likely be hard. But there's good reasoning for why I'm choosing this option which I won't explain just yet because I'm not bothered to at the moment. I'll admit, most of the time, I look at the young couples dating in my church and I just think to myself "Thank goodness I'm not in a relationship that would drain me emotionally (and financially) ". I mean it's already hard enough to devote my attention and set my mind on God let alone another person. And that's sort of giving me a push to start my journey. Now I'm not saying that being in a relationship is bad, but for me as of this moment, it's not my thing. And, sorry, I just have to put this out there. THE FREEDOM THAT COMES WITH BEING SINGLE IS AMAZING! Everytime I ask my friends to hang out and they're like, "Oh sorry, I have to do such and such with my girlfriend", well what can I say...sucked in buddy.
P.S I strongly recommend watching Man of Steel, amazing movie.
